3 days ago, my birthday.. What a day.. I had my first lesson driving a car. How nice. And no one got hurt !! I was actually pretty good! Anyway..

There are some problems in my lovely life once again. More about that later, first: remember when once of those honey-bees add me again? Well yesterday I had a conversation with her, and it actually went kind off well.. We just talked, and gossiped about all kind of stuff. Though I'm still sure I don't want her close to me again. Just superficial friendship I guess. She was gossiping about her friend, who wasn't her friend any more for like two days. And it was kind of nasty of her to talk about that friend the way she did to me. So yeah, I don't want her close to me any more. Those days are gone.

And I'm really scared the days with my boyfriend are gone as well.. I mean.. everything is still going great, he is the best boyfriend ever and stuff, but he's planning to go away for another 4 months when he's home for like a month or 2.. When I met him, we had like 2 months together, then he went away for 2 months, then he was home 2 months, now he is away for 4 months, when he get back he'll be home for 2 months and then again leave for 4 months.. (Probably), because it's not 100% sure yet.. But I mean.. GOSH.... I knew it when I met him, but that it would be this often I didn't realise.. Since we are together I've spend more time alone, instead of spending time with him. And I know it's not gonna change, so I have to figure out if I can deal with it.

I mean, he's already used to it. It's his life! And that's kind of hard to accept to, I feel like he's dealing it so easily, Besides, I thought I was getting used to it to, but I'm not at all.