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donderdag 30 september 2010


Hello Hello.

I'm absolutely done with it. I realise I can't do this any more. Every time I keep thinking about him, every second. And the most annoying thing about it is that I can't stop it, not one way or the other.. If I would end it, he would still be on my mind for ever and ever, besides, I would have to wait until he gets back to tell him.. and by then I would melt by just seeing his eyes, his smile, his everything.. and I would forget all I felt before, I'd just feel all those butterfly's again and nothing else.

It's just so annoying to love him this much.. It's not my way of living. I don't ever get so caught up with one guy. And the worst thing is that I kind off feel like I'm the one getting hurt again. I know that in my head he's not the same as all those other boys.. but in real life, why shouldn't he be? A guy is a guy right?

Well I know he's not the same. He's different. He gives me those weird feelings.. no one has ever given me before. I'm getting soft again. He makes me feel so vulnerable. I mean, I know I'm only 5.4ft, but he makes me feel so much smaller when he isn't around. Because when he is, he makes me feel like I can handle the whole world. And I guess it frightens me to know that I need him so much.

This sucks so hard. I know it's all just a test.. to see if we're worth being together. Well guess what, this is just a breakdown-moment.

But I'll get through this. And if I see him, my whole world stops and stares for a while, just to see him smile, and say: "hello girl, I missed you, let's get home together".

Xoxo. The girl on tour





22:44


& A little note




Being Myself

I’m not afraid to speak my mind.
Or share my every thought.
I’m not afraid, and will not hide.
No matter what the cost.

At first I was a little girl,
Who did not understand.
That no one else could rule my world,
Or change the way I am.

Why should I pretend to be,
A girl I know I’m not?
Why can’t no one ever see,
The insides worth a shot.

Judging by the outer looks,
Will never let you see,
All the things you really should.
The outsides just a screen.

I’ll be the girl who sits alone,
Without a single friend.
Even though, at least I know,
I’m true, and don’t pretend.

I’ll wear the cloths I like the best,
And not the one’s approved.
Who cares if I’m not like the rest.
To me, myself, I’m true.



& memory lane


mei 2009
juni 2009
juli 2009
augustus 2009
september 2009
oktober 2009
november 2009
maart 2010
juni 2010
juli 2010
augustus 2010
september 2010
oktober 2010
november 2010
december 2010
januari 2011
maart 2011
juni 2013
augustus 2013
november 2014

& Shout Out



& About Me

JusStxmii
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again. I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It. I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.



& Wishlist

Go to Australia
Make me grow taller.
Wisdom, Knowledge & Talent.
Fame, Beauty & Fortune.
Friends forever.


& Adiences


 

They applauded her and gave her a standing ovation.

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