donderdag 30 september 2010
Hello Hello.
I'm absolutely done with it. I realise I can't do this any more. Every time I keep thinking about him, every second. And the most annoying thing about it is that I can't stop it, not one way or the other.. If I would end it, he would still be on my mind for ever and ever, besides, I would have to wait until he gets back to tell him.. and by then I would melt by just seeing his eyes, his smile, his everything.. and I would forget all I felt before, I'd just feel all those butterfly's again and nothing else.
It's just so annoying to love him this much.. It's not my way of living. I don't ever get so caught up with one guy. And the worst thing is that I kind off feel like I'm the one getting hurt again. I know that in my head he's not the same as all those other boys.. but in real life, why shouldn't he be? A guy is a guy right?
Well I know he's not the same. He's different. He gives me those weird feelings.. no one has ever given me before. I'm getting soft again. He makes me feel so vulnerable. I mean, I know I'm only 5.4ft, but he makes me feel so much smaller when he isn't around. Because when he is, he makes me feel like I can handle the whole world. And I guess it frightens me to know that I need him so much.
This sucks so hard. I know it's all just a test.. to see if we're worth being together. Well guess what, this is just a breakdown-moment.
But I'll get through this. And if I see him, my whole world stops and stares for a while, just to see him smile, and say: "hello girl, I missed you, let's get home together".
Xoxo. The girl on tour
22:44
woensdag 29 september 2010
Hey there bloggers,,
Another day in paradise. Right now I'm @ school. How boring. I should do something.. but I don't feel like working. Yesterday I got my future planned out. The things to look forward right now:
Oct: B'day with family, next day B'day with friends, next day B'day in Amsterdam with other friends. How awesome! 3 days to celebrate my B'day. Besides, I got a wedding reception, and a wedding anniversary. Both very nice.
Nov: Not very much, besides the fact that I'm going to london!! That's pretty awesome. With my neighbor. For 4 days. I'm looking forward to it, my only holiday this year =D
Dec: Of course the most awesome thing ever, my boyfriend is coming back then. So that's the most awesome thing ever. Besides that, I have a huge party planned, Pirate theme! So I'm going like keira knightley! And my boyfriend doesn't know it yet, but he is also coming along, so I hope he's got some pirateclothes. ((pretty hilarious, he's coming back from a trip where he's been hunting pirates for like 3 months, and then he's coming back and the next weekend there's a pirate themed party.
Anyway, gotta go,
Xoxo. The girl on tour
14:56
woensdag 22 september 2010
Well hello hello!
Let's write something down again. You know,, I really really really love my boyfriend. He says the right things, he's sort of there even when he isn't, And yeah. He loves me to. I guess that's pretty important.
He has been gone for 1,5 month right now. still got 2,5 months to go. I get sad by the fact that I am still not passed half. I thought it was going faster these days, because he called me much more, and that sort of stuff. But apparently it wasn't. Anyway.
Remember those honeybee's from a long time ago, like 10 months or something? She added me again at msn. what a shock, haha. Hope she's still happy with G though, because what I've got now, I'd give everyone. Let's not talk about the things I'd also give to those people, but hea. Haha, I've been very polite so far about it, so let's continue.
My friendship with J (read a few blogs earlier) is officially over. Every time I see J, it's all nice and great, but if you want to do something, J doesn't answer. So I better spend time on my other friends. They deserve it.
School is really nice by the way. I've made a lot new friends, but two of them are absolutely the best. Guess I have something with the number 3.
All right. I gotta go again. I got the feeling my lovely boyfriend is calling me again today.
So let's see.
Xoxo. The Girl on Tour.
10:26
zondag 12 september 2010
Huroo Huroo, Hello there.
Sorry. I listened to much Dropkick Murphy's.
Ok, never mind. What about my life. I mean.. that's what this blog is about right. Not really mentioned to be very interesting or something like that. I mean.. It's about me. Anyway. I just like to write, so let's go entertain my lovely reader, who's reading this right now.
Ok. My life. C. has been gone for 1 month now. Well, tomorrow, little detail. Anyway, A month. Right. So I only have to wait for like.. 2,5 months longer until he'll be home. Ah men, it's getting harder everyday. I want to hold him, hug him, kiss him, hug him again, and then you can just fill it in yourself.
But anyway. My life is more than just counting the days until he'll be back. My school started again. I'm studying photography now. It's really nice. Maybe I'll add some pictures sometimes.
My classmates are all very nice, so that's a plus. And well, I'm feeling great.
I've got a nice education, a handsome lovely boyfriend, nice friends, nice family, A pretty busy life so far. Lovein it.
Xoxo. The Girl on Tour
22:32
