Hey there bloggers,

It's a new day, It's a new start, It's a new life, And I'm feeling.. good....
I guess. Maybe not that good, things still need to be sorted out, but hea, I got my head straight again. I realised that I really want things to work out.. I really want to work for it. I hope he wants that to. Yeah afcourse there's been some misunderstandings, but I think I understand him now. The problem is, he needs to see things from my perspective.

If he just said it straight away.. I can't see you till thursday. What would I've done? I would have agreed. If he just said that, not on the day of matter, but just a little bit earlier. I wouldn't be all excited and so very much disappointed when he left me al by myself. I've been skating up and down the bridge where he would pass when he was done with work, and he didn't show.. then when I finally received a message, after asking where he was, he already left..

I don't think he understands how he has hurt me. I was so excited I could finaly see him, and then he left me alone, I understand he needs some space and time for himself, but if he only said that the day before or something. I was in a harbor, and the whole harbor was talking about his ship coming home, and 'the girlfriend who was so excited that her boygriend came home in the last ship at the left wharf.' Wich made me look like a hudge fool or something like that. just because I was so unbelieveable excited and happy to see him.. when he didn't even show....

Anyway. I still really want to see him, still can't wait. When I see him I still want to kiss him, and hug him, and I can't believe that I still love him so much. It's sort off weird. I really have a weakness for him. The only thing is that I wonder if he got the same feelings.. But I think as soon as I see him, I feel like a fool again, for doubting him.

Anyway. What am I gonna do.. I'm gonna wait until friday, and than I hope that when I call him everything will be okay again. I hope he had a good night of sleep this night, at his homeplace, I hope everything I did was okay, like cleaning everything. I know he didn't ask for it, but I think it's normal to do for me. He gave me his key, so it was my responsability.

Hope one day he'll understand my point.. Every girl would be disappointed if the first thing that came op at his mind was being alone instead of seeing his girlfriend after 8 weeks, even if it would only be for 10 minutes.

Gotta go again, I'm still at a harbor, different village though.

Xoxo. The girl on tour.
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