maandag 3 november 2014
Hey they bloggers!
Not sure if there has ever been anyone out there reading this blog, but honestly, I couldn't care less.
It has been more than a year now... And if there is one thing I've learned... it's that people don't change.
I keep staring into the past. I've made some mistakes. I once thought friends where forever. That's probably the biggest mistake I've ever made. Dreaming that our children would grow up together... How stupid..
I worked in some fine places, and got stabbed in the back for doing all the hard work. I don't regret anything I did, I mostly regret the things I didn't do. I wish I took some great revenge for the dark people I've met, but that would'nt do me any justice...
But maybe it's not justice I've been looking for. What if it is some form of parsimonious that I've experienced? I was not looking at my own life at that time, I just wanted them to be miserable. Isn't that just as bad?
So is it good that I didn't revenge myself? Did it do me any justice? Well... I'm in (what's supposed to be*) paradise, I'm still (supposed to be**) together with the love of my life. He's supporting me with everything, my biggest hero ever. Still my soulmate.
So why still look at the past? Can you tell me? Anyone...?
Xoxo. the Girl on tour
* What is paradise without family?
** Or without the love of your life? He's at sea. Again.
18:13
vrijdag 9 augustus 2013
Hey bloggers,
It's me again. Long time no see. Big surprise. I noticed that Lately my entire blog has been devoted to C. Well not anymore. My blogs has been about him way to many times. It's time it is about me again. He had enough.
I'm done with so many things. Clearing my head, leaving stuff behind. My stomach feels itchy and I really want to punch someone in the face. Oeps. Ok enough blogging for today
Excuse me bloggers, no wise lesson today.
Xoxo the Girl on tour.
14:54
vrijdag 7 juni 2013
And yet another day. Hello dear bloggers,
Time is running out. Feelings slipping away. Fears in every corner. Slowely things are pulling through. I don't know what to say, think or even remember anymore. Lately so much happened, I hardly know my own feelings. Let alone his. And if there is one thing I learned, it will be that I cared more about hij than anything else. The problem is that he can not see it.
I live because of him and all he does is longing for someone or something else. I dont understand it anymore. I just work and work and try to smile hoping that one day it will be like it was...
Fingers crossed....
14:02
dinsdag 22 maart 2011
Goodday there bloggers.
It's been a while again. I really like this blog. It's great to ease my mind and just calm down.
Right now I'm starting to think what it means to have a relationship. I think it's great, but what does it mean? Should you stay nice, just be yourself and live your life with another person? What if you can't be yourself? What if you both are yourself and it doesn't match? Does that mean your relationship is one big fake thing?
And what if you both are yourself? And you find out that the other one is exactly the person you need? Doesn't that mean you are always afraid of loosing eachother? And if you are not, is that wrong?
Hmmm. It's hard. All these things, you would almost say that staying single is the best thing to do. But then I realize that the one person lying next to me on the couch is the one thing I never want to lose. And although he is not as perfect as he thinks, he is perfect for me. And even though he has a few cons I'd love him till death. If only he knew. Sometimes,.,, never mind.
Anyway,
dear bloggers.
There's only one thing to say left,
live laugh love smile work and don't forget to play!
Xoxo. The girl on Tour
19:49
zondag 9 januari 2011
Dear Bloggers.
Notice how everything around you keeps changing. Life is one big challenge. Everyday another day to mess things up or to start something beautiful. Time is so precious. Two years ago that hit me so hard. 17 September will never be the same, but it made so much clear. I'm thankful for that.
I know I appreciate everything so much more thanks to that day. That's why I am who I am right now. I'm not really satisfied about that sometimes, but I know I respect myself. I'm strong, I know who I am and I know what to fight for. with certain things you can pull me down so easily, but I know what that is. I know when that happens. By now, I made a shield for all that. I can lock it out. It took some time to, but I can. So for now I'm happy with who I am and what I do. I enjoy every second.
So should you.
Xoxo. The girl on Tour
15:24
maandag 3 januari 2011
Hello bloggers.
One thing is really pissing me off. Most people who ask about me and my relationship don't seem to get the picture. Most of the time it's like, ahhh nice, and how long have you guys been together? Well a long time, and then always and ever follows the question: well how long has he been home in that period? Then they start to laugh, because it's not even half of the time. ahhhh well then you can't seem to call it anything serious.
Well what do you guys don't get? Please wake up! When he's gone it's just as hard as when he's home! I don't get the nice parts, like watching movies together, I've never been to the cinema with him, I never done a lot of things most couples already did in the first month. But hea! I've had my time with him. We probably have a better connection than any of those superficial couples will ever have. Our relationship is not bounded on the time we have together in bed. Those couples will cry if there love is away for like a month, well we don't, because we know we stay together.
It's even harder when he's gone. I get to live here, I go out every week, I meet very nice people, but do I go any further with them? No, why not? because I don't need a superficial relationship which only last for like a week. I already found a guy who's worth waiting for.
So dumb asses over there who think that having a guy in the marine isn't as hard as a softy who's home all the time, wake up! You don't see ME cry when my men is gone for a week. Because I KNOW he's worth it, like I said before. Damn I'm starting to repeat myself.
I'm just getting really upset by those reactions. "ahw well then your love is still new, and fresh" get real folks. It's harder then anything else. Thinking about him every second and not being able to call him, to say how much I love him as much as I'd like. But hea, You don't hear me complain.
I love him more then anything in this world. And what I like the most is that for once in my life I'm not making a mistake. I know it for sure, this time I found a right guy.
So go on, and say that what we have is not real, or nothing serious at all, but then think about YOUR boyfriend, would you trust him drunk in a bar with girls who are throwing themselfs all over him? probably not, I would. This time I'm sure, I'm for once not a rebound girl. And it feels great.
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Good night and sweet dreams to y'all.
Xoxo. The girl on tour
23:06
zondag 2 januari 2011
Hey there Bloggers,,,
Let's misbehave!
Sometimes in life you got to do some things that you thought you would never do. It's relaxing you know, you just have to do it sometimes. Trust me, It'll chill you down when you're tensed. So relaxe, and misbehave!
Xoxo. The girl on Tour
13:48
